Wednesday, December 21, 2011
when one gets too busy
I have been for months now juggling too many things. the things and people that are most important moved down on priorities. It is caused me too be ineffective as a mom and wife the way I know I am supposed to be. I commend mom's who work outside the home and still are able to keep the household going without mental breakdowns. I have discovered I can't. This is about me and not anybody else. I personally can not work from home or outside the home and not get overwhelmed. I have had to take a step back from the crocheting business. Trying to take care of a baby, moderate preteen drama, home school, school for me, crochet hundreds of hats, take care and maintain the house became way too overwhelming. I stopped doing my schoolwork and stopped running. My house became a cluttered mess. I rarely left. I went to bed too late and had to get up early. It finally caught up with and had a mental breakdown in my kitchen. My husband is wonderful. He helps me all the time. For me though I am type A so if I cant do all that I want to perfectly than I cant handle it. So it was a good lesson to step back and realize what the priorities are and step back. I have learned I can't work from home. It becomes all I think about and becomes the number one priority. It is just how I am . I t was like that when I did another home based business for seven years. If I did not home school it probably would be different but I know that is what I am supposed to do. I also am not saying I don't work from home. I do everyday in maintaining my household and teaching my children Mon -Fri. I want to do more projects with them. I want to get up early and go to bed early so we can start our day with good energy and on time. I want school to not become tedious and boring. Next year we may be doing different curriculum altogether to help me with this. It was a lesson I have learned from. I now know I can only do so much and can't do it all, even though I want to. I am not quitting crocheting but it is going to slow way down. When I am done with school I may pick it back up but I have to make sure that I prioritize correctly. I am just glad the lesson was learned quickly instead of my stubbornness making it drag out forever.