I think we have all heard the saying "assumptions make an a@% out of you and me." Well, for me, they only do it for me. There are things that I assume based on past experiences that are just not accurate or reality. I then let my imagination take over and make something seem like a reality when it is not. It is then that I have to face the music and the embarrassment of admitting I am wrong. This is pure torture for a Type A personality. We type A personalities have a tendency towards perfection in everything, including our own selves. This means that admitting we are wrong means admitting we are not perfect. I know that I am not but I don't like when I am wrong. It messes me all up. It means I have to admit faults and things about myself that are just not pretty and in control. In my life I want everything to be pretty and in control, at all times. I have come to the place after many years, though, that I can admit sooner that I am wrong. I can humbly go to the person that I am wrong about and ask forgiveness. Not just say sorry, but utter those words "Can you forgive me?" Of course they say "yes." But there is that chance they could say no. I know they won't but that is a risk when you ask. Which if they decide to say no, that is not on me anymore. That is not some thing I need to consume myself with if that were to happen. Why? Because what is most important is seeking forgiveness from a Holy God who wipes away my sins. He always forgives.
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9
I never have to wonder if He will say no. He will always say yes I forgive you and will never think about it again.
I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more. Isaiah 43:25
No matter what I have done He will forgive even when I do it over and over again. He still says "Yes, I forgive you. "
Psalm 103:8-12 The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love. He will not always chide, nor will he keep his anger forever. He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far does he remove our transgressions from us.
My relationship with Him is what matters most. Striving to be like Jesus is what matters most. Forgiveness cleanses me and makes that possible.
"Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. Isaiah 1:18